Where the hell I’ve been

Hi folks.  How are ya?  Been busy?  My reader says so.  WOW!  Ya’all can blog!

Well, as you already know, I failed miserably at making my 30 CONTINUOUS days of blogging.  I have the MOTHER of all excuses and you’ll see in a moment why that is a REALLY poor choice of words.

So last week I went in for my first prenatal appointment with my OB.  It was going well until we did the ultra sound.  Some of you know this fun little doodad I like to call the dildo cam.  And yes, I called it that in the office that day.

All the humor flew out the window when we didn’t see a heart beat.  And wow, that was really hard to read just now.  Okay, going to have a moment here and I’ll be right back.

If any of you are in need of an OB and live in Northern CA/bay area, I highly recommend Jill Foley.  She was with me for most of my last pregnancy and was just incredible with me last week.  She didn’t get overly emotional.  Handled my silence and shock with an amazing calm and professional demeanor.  Not once did I feel like I was being “handled” by a sterile technician.  She was warm without being sickly sympathetic.  I am so very grateful.

For the record, while I do have a moment here and there, I really am fine.  The hardest part has been telling the people that care about us.  Their pain is worse than my own.  And no, I haven’t told my 80 year old coworker.

My other reason for sharing this very personal info is that I feel like I’ve set a precedent here.  I’m honest and share the good, bad and ugly.  It would have been strange for me to go on to tell you all about partying til dawn, drinking my troubles away, though I suppose there are pregnant women that do that, I’m not one of them.

You know, life goes on.  There have been lots of other stuff going on around the mad woman’s homestead.  Still working on that damn dining room.  Bought some art, got to get it framed, got to buy some more, love you ETSY!

We recently had the house cosmetically leveled.  (Damn clay soil and 80 year old house!)  This resulted in some unsightly cracks and F$%* me if I can’t get a damn contractor to call me back to fix them!

The Mad’s 2nd birthday is coming up so I’ve been planning and shopping for the fun event.  If I haven’t said it before, I really don’t like little kids parties (expecially if I have to plan them.)  We had cupcakes last year and we’ll do that again this year.  Hubs gave me such hell for not getting Mad a birthday present last year (what, a big fat chocolate cake isn’t a present?  It is if you ask me!)  While I KNOW she won’t remember this day, it is a fine opportunity to give her some things I’ve felt she needed/would love.    Mad loves to color and create her art at daycare so I thought it was a great time to get her an artist’s easel and supplies.  (And hopefully I wont be smashing crayons into my living room rug anymore.)

What else, you say? 

Went to a surprise 40th birthday party for a gal I’ve known over 10 years.   It was really lovely and just what I needed to pick me up out of my doldrums.  Gonna have to chat about her and good friends one of these days.

We’re starting an overhaul of our kitchen.  We’re going to try to do most of the work ourselves (no major plumbing or electrical work, Thank gawd!)  So there will be a series of posts on that coming up.

Bored to tears by Idol as of late.  Big surprise there!

Also, I mentioned before, I was participating in an online bloggy workshop.  Two words: COMPLETE FAILURE!  And I have  few more words to say on the matter too….another FULL post on THAT learning experience.  Whew!

So, did ya miss me?  Got something to share?  Spill it!